Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding. (Pro 3:5)
This one is tough. It’s not tough in the basic knowledge or the concept. It’s tough because we can trust the Lord, but not always 100%.
Earlier this year, I lost my mother to cancer. The last 8 months have been a massive downward spiral in my faith and trust of the Lord. For me, most of my days were spent questioning the Lord and trying to move forward with my life. I couldn’t give the Lord the space he needed to be able to work in my life.
I did not lean on the Lord, but I leaned on myself. I leaned on the ways of the world. I had people telling me that the thoughts I had were normal and okay. But what I didn’t know was that the thoughts I had were not okay. The thoughts I had were what was causing me to question if God even loved me.
A few weeks ago, I met with Pastor Jarrod Davidoff of the Save The World Foundation and his wife, and they both reminded me about the Love of Jesus and the love of the Lord and to seek him out during my times of depression and questioning. Here I am now, Lord!
Now, I am trusting the Lord with my life again. I am no longer trying to lead my own life, but to follow the Lord in all we do!